Wednesday, December 31, 2014

48. / The last page

This would be a long post compare to the other posts cause I'm here to summarize my twenty fourteen.

I'm a bit lazy to type long post and got no time for it and I post whatever comes on my mind so it's short and I'm trying to write prose? And no one is reading so ya. 

Alright, if you read my previous post, you knew that I got dengue once and for the first time and it's on a Chinese New Year. Here I'm to talk about all the bad stuff in the year twenty fourteen so yeah. That's the first bad things happen to me. It's okay i had dengue but just why it happened to me on a new year? Luckily we can't celebrate cny this year but no fun and bad sign mah. I just summarize it so if you want know what's going on then go to the blog post. 

Then come to the dead day for me- SPM results day. I don't know what happened to me and I just don't know. I got the worst-result-ever in my life - - I work hard for it and I plan everything earlier and I follow my time and study and in the end I get that shitty results that I didn't expect like wth. There goes a post about this but not going to mention cause I didn't really post out the main thing. I actually cry lol. 

Alright, then I got National Service like why I am so lucky this year, dengue then this and that. Okay, anyway NS is not a bad thing tho, but the first day I thought I was strong enough not to cry but I actually do you know, I only cry in the bus secretly I guess my dad knew about it. And that time a girl that's the first friend I met and she ask me not to cry and I cry even harder lol. But luciky I met few friends there and close enough to talk nonsense and they are the only one who knew I have a bf like not anymore ha-ha. And I actually came out from ns earlier cause going to continue my studies like I wish at that moment. I actually regret coming out early as staying in there is awesome that you don't have to worried about anything like you're in a holiday, a-controlled-holiday. It's not that bad tho, your schedule maintaining and I think I have a healthier life when I'm there. And no-phone-day is awesome for now, and I'm controlling myself not to open facebook and I did it but not this few days cause I'm too much on facebook this few days. 

Okay then, actually the weeks after I continue my studies I actually thoughts of changing course and now I still do. I just hate it I don't know what's the reason and I'm so blank that I don't know what I want but my mind was thinking some course what I don't know I just feel like giving up in studies which is impossible in my family. So there's a post about dream and there it goes. Not going to talk much about this cause it's super duper annoying and I hate it.
Then, this WAS the saddest moment in year twenty fourteen cause I got dump like so sad. Ha-ha-ha. But okay, maybe I don't care anymore but when I say I don't care I still care and so that's the problem. And if I cry again I cry for not holding hands you know. Now I am. You know that feeling when someone so close to you like super close to you and all of sudden that person dump you and you not even in the friend list of the person anymore, not anymore you know, that kind of feeling. I got stuck from the day onwards. And then say "I'll be there for you" all the bull shit stuff. How I am going to trust you again like I got dump by you. Cause I can't even see you when I need you, just as friend you know, but you don't. I'm going to be cruel, super cruel that you can't even believe. One thing I don't know why all the couple out there can last so long like my batch like non of them separate (not to use that words so it won't be obvious lol) are they meant to be together or not the day yet, I'm not cursing them I just wondering how they did it. You know all of them really really sweet. Instagram and twitter can know more things.

// Attempting to convince yourself that you don't care about someone is a clear indicator that you really do. //

After that, I think overall that's it. I can't remember any bad things happened, but on my mind like there's something but I just don't remember. Lol so me. I'm not going to tell any goods or it doesn't happen to me this year so ya.

Ohh, and there I allergic, omg the whole body was so itchy that you feel like cutting of your skin peel of everything. Then I thought I got 風膜 but it doesn't get better after I apply calazite lotion (hydrocortisone) and rice vinegar with ginger cause last time when I was 12 I once had but after I applied the rice vinegar with ginger it gets better but not this time. So the next day went to the doctor and he said I allergic to something - - but I don't know, he said allergic can be in many ways like foods, weather, chemicals like detergents, and fabrics. But I didn't go for further check up cause it would be suffering he said. I think I'm allergic to the weather - - cause I feel itchy when suddenly comes to hot. 

But I would like to stay on December 2014 cause it's a productive month I went traveling to few places. I just love traveling to anywhere anytime especially sitting in the car look through the window and you'll see the nature. Not going to post where did I went although I wanted to do so. But at least at the year end I know what happiness is, little happiness is more than enough.

Looking forward to Twenty Fifteen and the first of January cause it is a big-big day for me and my family. And then August, and December. If can I would like to skip the other nine months lolol. 

And one thing, the few Malaysia planes were gone. Sigh. And this year I heard a lot of bad news extremely bad news you know. Death ends a life, not a relationship.

// many things left unsaid. - Jane. //

- Chapter 12 of 12

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

47. / Midnight

A photo taken by me // iPhone 5S

Midnight talk //

With my not-so-trusted friend

It's awesome 

Sharing not-a-secret secret

A post by him //

He posted a photo 

Which not for me 

Anymore 

But he cried for her 

Maybe 

He sacrifice a lot for the girl 

He might not know

But I can see the way he do

Me maybe  

- midnight city 

Thursday, December 25, 2014

46. / Again meet

從來 沒有人 這麼的不捨得我

他 求我留下

那幅依依不捨的樣子

我也有點 不捨得

他哭了 也難過

// 我們 再見 




Wednesday, December 24, 2014

45. / Eve

Weird :/

(Tied-up my hair) 

"Why do you tie up your hair?"
"Put down your hair is nicer."
(Happy-smiley face) that you can't imagine. 

"Then should I put down my hair?"

"Okay."
"Like that only nicer better."
(That happy smiley face you can't imagine again)

H E A R T M E L T 

- Merry Christmas EVE

Sunday, December 21, 2014

44. / Bookshop


    

突然的 喜歡在書局裡 徘徊 

那種感覺 沒有煩惱

在很多書裡 隨手一翻 

抽了一本 很吸引你的書

翻 讀 幾面

又得到了一些 知識 人生道理

又再走走 看看

重複的 徘徊 翻翻 讀讀

要什麼有什麼

就這樣 喜歡 

- 然後就這樣的 忘了 //

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

43. / Do you love me



"那時候的你 

自己有沒有喜歡我 

你自己心裡最明白 

不必為自己找藉口 

說我已經不喜歡你 

你才是那個不喜歡我的人 

因為你已經愛上第二個人了 

我知道

I know you're not into me anymore

Don't give me a reason that I'm not into you anymore

If I don't

I won't be doing all this for you"

- I'm not the only one //

Saturday, December 13, 2014

42. / Heaven


如果有一天

我再也醒不來

再也回不到這個世界 的時候

那你要永遠記得


曾經 很愛很愛你

- 另一個天堂

Friday, December 12, 2014

41. / Dream


 夢 • 想

曾经 有过很多梦想
太多的梦想
而变成 不知道那一个才是最真实的
不知道那一个才是最适合自己的
太多的梦想 造成 太多的困扰
或许梦想只有一个 而其余的都只是一时的兴趣
太多时候都只是在发白日梦 那只是你一时想要的 却不是你的梦想
那只是你一时的冲动 想要
夢想 你有吗

 //

记得 从小就把  会计师 挂在嘴边

到了中学 才慢慢的更了解一些

直到高中毕业就很理智的选了那科

开始 上网看 那些作品

还想 可以怎么改造 让它更好

现在读了自己选的那科

那些感觉都不在了

开始觉得讨厌 连看都不想看

一直想换课程

//

问自己 “那你要换那一科”

想了又想 不知道要换什么

摄影 媒体

就这两样 反复的想了又想

甚至 有时问起自己的时候

心里 突然一阵痛

因为害怕 真的没有主意

还想着 干脆去摄影棚打工

感觉没有文凭 好像都白费

每天 都在问自己一次

可是一次又一次的带过

 //

选了这科 我没什么把握

他们都说我 没有创意

我也不知道 糊里糊涂的

每次祈祷上天能够让我自己发现 我到底喜欢什么

什么才是最适合我

不知道是为了 一个常挂在嘴边的 ‘梦想’

还是为了早退当兵

还是因为一个人而放弃所有

不知道


// 一个常挂在嘴边的 “夢 • 想”

Tuesday, December 09, 2014

40. / Heart-hurt







因為 放不下


也因為 過不了自己的那一關


心裡那道門還打不開


- 那種痛 你不會明白 //

Thursday, November 27, 2014

37. / Liar



"When I date someone, I think long term. 

What's the point of dating someone 

if you only want them temporarily?"


This is fcuking true.

So what's the point you want to date me

when you only want me temporarily?


-You lied.



Tuesday, November 25, 2014

36. / The Hobbit



The first time I watch movie with a guy. 
That's part of how special The Hobbit is. 

Then, he lay his head on my shoulder, 
I can smell him, a little. 

The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies 
Screening on 18th of December 

Did we promise each other to watch the next hobbit?
I can't remember as I don't remember. 

I wish I can watch with you, again. 
I wish you don't. 

Shall we?


-will you follow me, one last time

Friday, November 07, 2014

34. / No entry


 
My heart is hurt.

My heart is broken.

Don't step into my life,

unless you're going to treat me like a princess.

and date me to marry?

- 这一次的伤
太深了

Wednesday, November 05, 2014

33. / This is for you, love


Alright, after months, 
And I finally know the truth or the reasons. 

Do you regret doing it to me? 
If I'm not wrong, you regret. 
Now I know how you feel, 
You feel the same as how I feel, 
And you know how I feel. 
If you loved me, why'd you leave me? 
Just like what you said, I'm part of your life and you're part of mine too. 

Till then, I reply everything short, there's a reason for it, 
Because of you, 
Cause I feel that you don't even care about me anymore, 
You're not giving and doing those sweet stuff and what you did to me make me feel really really sad, 
That's why, I keep going with all the short replies, and sometimes, I don't even know what to reply, I didn't mean to be. 

I didn't care less about you, I didn't, and I always care, I care a lot and I even get jealous, friends told me you keep talking to girls at school, and I start to over think. Maybe I care just not the way you want and you can't feel it. I literally on facebook when I have classes just to chat with you. Someone said I still care bout you, but just why you can't feel it. He said I do it too obvious. But why you just can't see and feel. 

I want to go out with you, but I just don't want let my parents know about it, even the first time, I told them I went out with friends, she even asked me who, then I simply listed out few of your friends. Of course I want go out with you, who don't want go out with their partner. 

Every night, I think a lot, keep thinking if we go out, then we should do this and that, I even regret not holding hands on the first outing, keep thinking if I get my license then I will drive myself to find you or whatever. I remember once I asked you to come out, but you ignore me, and that moment I know how you feel when I keep ignore you, and since that day I know you're not into me anymore, and without all those sweet stuff, I'm pretty sure. 

Yes, everyday, I have that little hope that you will come back to me, now I know you regret doing it I don't know is it true but just, it makes me have that little hope again. But that day I post a status about come back to me, you didn't like the post and that time I lost all the hopes lol. 

I don't know, really lost now, I don't know what should I do, stay or move? I just need your one answer now. 

For once, you trusted me, and told me everything. I just knew it today. I know I can't keep promise, I break all the promises, I'm bad at that and I know it. I know always in your mind I'm a liar. 

Just want to let you know that, I love the soft kiss. I don't know do you still remember, but I just can't forgot. I miss when you lean on my shoulder. I miss you. 

I don't mind if you don't count our anniversary, I don't need you to buy me expensive things or bring me to those high class places, I don't need you to call me every night. I give you so much freedom. I sacrifice and invest so much on you but you don't feel touch. 

I'm so proud to be yours, I even told my ns friends bout you, and told them how good you are, chase me for years and etc, they were so shock cause where to find those guy who love you for such long time. 

This is how I feel, but maybe to you, you don't feel it. 

Let me refresh your memory a bit. I was the one who listened to your problems. I was the one who actually cared about you. I was the one who stuck around when everyone told me to leave. I was the one who loved you even when you gave me reasons not to. Lastly, I was the one who was there for you when no one else was. 

Because I can only be myself I front of you. 
I only tell you all these things I mean all my difficulties etc, cause I can't find any other to tell to. Just used to tell you everything, literally everything happened to me. You see I'm that friend with ky but I didn't tell her anything, not anyone except you. We almost talk or chat with each other for four years like everyday, almost. But all these, just not happen anymore since that day. I miss those moment I on just to chat with you. 
And now, I getting into you again like not going to move on, and I feel like giving a kiss and love after all the goodbyes and good night lololololol. But sometimes I over think and I thought you like the other girl and not into me anymore, maybe you did, I know I have to trust you, but idk. All your replies now makes me feel like you doesn't want to talk. And I can see that you don't care. Kay I guess I'm too 自作多情 lol. Okay, you don't care, maybe I shouldn't care, too. Maybe you do. Why am I so stupid to fall in love again to the person that will never fall for me again?

I just love you, I don't mind all your backgrounds etc, I'm in love with you not your backgrounds, you know, people stay from you cause of your attitude, but I didn't even sometimes I heard them saying your bads, for me I just don't think so. Or maybe, you're not yourself in front of me, cause I can see how you change like now, you changed a lot. I can't believe. 

Just to let you know, exactly the way I feel. 
To let you know my loves so real. 
Because I love you, I'll do anything, 
I'll give you my heart, my everything. 

Okay I'm typing this longer and longer. One day, I'll find out this and laugh at how stupid I am to do all this.

Always tell someone how you feel, because opportunities are lost in blink of an eyes, but regret can last a lifetime. 

Love is just so complicated. Or love is blind.

I'm trying to forget you but I'm also waiting for you to come back.

Saturday, November 01, 2014

32. / Friendship

When i read someone's post, about friendship,
I don't know why, it just pop out on my mind that he is talking bout you.
I can feel that.
Because i feel the same as him.
And then, at first i was just suspect that he is talking bout you,
till then, i read someone's instagram,
that she said he's talking about you, like pretty sure,

Although I don't know what happened to you guys,
but i just feel that you changed a lot a lot.
which i don't even know who are you.

I feel disappointed, really,
I almost cry, brokenhearted,
I just couldn't believe you treat your friends like this,
You don't know how your words or even just two letters can hurt someone so much.
I feel him, cause you treat me the same way,
which i really really don't understand why,
I don't know who changed you that much,
is it me? i don't know.
The old you is better than now.

Because you've changed to not you anymore,
not anymore.


- sometimes
you have to
understand that
people change.



To : pigu

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

31. / Tired



I'm tired,

tired of being myself,

tired of everything,

just tired,

of those frustrating stuff,

etc.

I need a rest,

just a long rest,

going to somewhere,

just not this world.

anymore.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

30. / If I Stay


If you ignore me, I won't wait around.

I won't bug you, I just won't talk to you.

Simple as that.

Sure, it's going to be hard.

It's going to hurt.

But it won't hurt as much as being ignore,

because i deserve better than that.

I'll move on and find someone who actually cares about me,

since obviously you don't.

If you continually treat me like crap,

what reason do i have to stay?

Monday, October 20, 2014

29. / Die or Died




 One day,

If i died,

Please be happy,

Be happy for me,

Because i feel like dying.

And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing. 


Don't feel sad,

and you wouldn't,

because you don't even care. 


I won't
go for
suicide,
k.

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

28. / Leo


狮子
狮子座的人不玩手段这是正常现象,
因为他们总觉得如果玩手段会感觉对不起其他人,
这是他们心里善良的表现。他们希望通过自身的努力来达到既定的目标,
不喜欢旁门左道,因为那样的人在狮子座人的眼中是很低下的,
真正能够让狮子座人佩服的人,必定是靠自己的本领站到世界顶峰的人
有人说,别轻易和狮子座谈恋爱
这是事实,因为狮子座总是拿自己的全部去赌爱情
如果你没有办法把爱情当成自己的全部,就别和他(她)们赌,
否则最后,虽然败俱伤,
但是,你永远不知道,在狮子座的心中,这道伤痕划下的有多深
更不知道自己得付出多少代价!

狮子座天性好玩,好奇心重,不管他多大,童心一直不会变,跟他在一起,
请不要用一成不变的感情生活代替一切,
除了感情,他更欣赏一个能和他一起探索一起前进一起享受的伴侣
他会带给你更多惊喜。看他孩子气时,请不要指责他幼稚,
他的孩子气只会展现在最在乎的人面前,这时候的他是最可爱最纯真的

狮子座,
绝对是最有魅力的星。不太勤奋,可却有过人的智慧,和超强判断力。
狮子真的很讨厌最亲近的人对她说谎,这种伤害会持续很久,很难遗忘
别对狮子说谎,这只会让你像小丑般用解释来掩饰。
我是狮子座开心就笑,伤心就哭;喜欢就说喜欢,不喜欢就说不喜欢

狮子座是骄傲的。这从他们的走路姿态就能看出来。
昂首挺胸,尤其是狮女,还会轻轻扬起她们的下巴
抬起她们高贵的头颅,一副凛然不可侵犯的样子

不过,他们同时也是敏感的,缺乏安全感的
有人总结狮子座是“最阴郁的阳光”,真是精妙。
狮子座的致命弱点:脾气有点大,

狮子很开朗不开心的时候就会故意隐藏自己,只是想让自己显的更独立更坚强;
狮子很敏感,看似什么都不计较,不细心,其实是在包容对方,所以会假装什么都不知道;狮子很现实,很正义,最讨厌软弱拖拉的人,更讨厌自以为是的人;
狮子不善表达自己的情感,所以常常用沉默取代表达


狮子女爱上了一个人就会深爱,也许她一辈子只爱一个人,
狮子女的感情很珍贵,她很难才能爱上一个人,
当她爱上你请好好对待,狮子座忘记一个人需要一辈子,
如果爱上狮子,请深深爱

喜欢狮子座一定要很主动很自信才行,不然一定会被狮子的冷淡吓跑。
不过狮子不喜欢自负的人,不自私,有主见的人是她们的最爱。
狮子很能忍,什么事都自己藏在心里不说,
所以狮子的恋人一定要是一个善解人意的人,
在狮子说没关系我很好的时候握住她的手说我知道你不好,陪在她身边。

Saturday, September 27, 2014

27. / Numb

发呆

喜欢发呆的感觉,很自由,很随性。感觉累了,倦了,渴望休息,想要喘口气,不用在乎何时,何地,就让心整个沉淀下来,将目光望向远方。发一会儿呆,压力就能立即获得释放,精神就能立即感到松绑。

发呆不需要理由,更无所谓对或错。在这个世界里,没有旁人的眼光,没有社会的规范,只有我一个人,而我也像超出了平常的自己。在这个毫无约束且放松的境界中,可以什么都不去想,也可以尽情地发挥想象力,不用去管平时一定要做的事做好了没,平时一定要说的话说了没有。这是一个失重的空间,一个可以让你的身心都感到轻飘飘的空间;这是一个停驻的空间,一个能让你尽情在其中享受慵懒放松的空间。

发呆是一种旁若无人的境界。你不用去在乎周围是否嘈杂,不用特意去寻觅一个僻静的地方,因为发呆只需用心,不需用耳。只要你用心想象自己已进入一座静谧的森林,你就能体会到‘明月松间照,清泉石上流’,体会到‘蝉噪林愈静,鸟鸣山更幽’,体会到‘盈盈一水间,脉脉不得语’的绝妙境界。
发呆是本性的回归。别去管发呆时的眼神是否很呆滞,模样是否傻乎乎,因为目光的呆滞并不代表思维的停止。这里有宇宙般浩瀚的空间,供你驰骋,让你发挥。你可以很随性,也可以很任性;你可以很嚣张,也可以很慵懒。在自我的空间里,尽情体验个性的挥洒。

发呆的感觉,就是随意。一种从身体到精神上的放牧,一种躯体与灵魂的游离。发呆为我们提供了一个适当的发泄管道。毕竟,整天穿梭不息,行色匆匆的我们,也许在匆忙的日子里疏忽了心灵的沉寂,也许在平淡的生活中消磨了年少的灵性和锐气,也许在许多的时间里面似乎忘记了留一点儿空间,时间给自己。发呆,是一段与自己灵魂对话的旅程。







Wednesday, September 24, 2014

26. / Silly Girl



傻孩子,到現在還放不下對方嗎?
  
傻孩子,到現在還想著對方的一點一滴嗎?
    
傻孩子,我來給你做個試驗:
你拿著一個茶杯,然後就往裡面倒熱水,一直倒到水溢出來。
你燙到手的時候是馬上鬆手了嗎?
知道我想說什麼了嗎?
  
這個世界上沒有什麼事是放不下的,痛了,你自然就會放下。

傻孩子.
忘了吧.所有你留戀的.你回憶的.你擁有過的.
那些.都已是記憶.
缺失並不可怕.
可怕的.是無法面對.
  
傻孩子.
你無法輕易忘記放棄.是因為你付出過.
付出了.她就會像柱子一樣紮根在心.
不要刻意去逃避.刻意忘記.那只會讓你更痛苦.
繞開這個柱子.尋找未來的幸福生活吧.
那裡.有你的理想. 

傻孩子.
開始新的習慣吧.
習慣.每天一個人生活.
習慣.一個人過生日.一個人行走.
習慣.走過熟悉的路.面對熟悉的景.
你逃不掉.逃不掉的.
那麼.就勇敢面對.現實.
現實是.一切.畫上了句點.
    
傻孩子.
勇敢看著鏡子中的自己吧.
這個悲傷軟弱滿面憔悴的自己.
這個你.正在逐漸死去.
新的你.即將重生
尋你的路.你的未來.
你知道的.所有的浩劫.都是成長的祭奠.
做最好的自己.即使.一個人.

傻孩子.
好.好.盡情發洩吧.
剝開自己的心.用文字.用聲音.用所有能發洩的方式.
發洩完了.就要振作.
看吧.你失去的.其實微不足道.
還有那麼多人關心著你.以不同的方式.
所以.你並不孤獨.
正是這樣的失去.讓你看清現在所擁有的幸福.
 
傻孩子.
別哭.別再哭.
不值得.真的.不值得了.
把過去塵封吧.別委屈.別不甘心.別不接受.
開始新的旅程吧.去遇見新的風景.新的際遇.
做你該做的事吧.有很多事.等待著你完成呢.
  
傻孩子.
生活褪去了曾有的顏色.暫時寧靜.
別沉淪在這片寧靜裡.那會毀掉你.
你要明白.雖然殘忍.但這個決定.足夠正確.
現在的生活.不是你想要的.
為了你的理想.你必須學會適時放棄.
給對方最好的關懷.就是.變的更好.更強大.更幸福.
  
現在我對你很好、很好、很好,你不需要、你無所謂、你不在乎,你不珍惜。
當某天,你被傷害,想起我。你就會明白了
好好的對待對方是最好的,以後的時間是很長的,既然緣分讓你們相交,記得珍惜。
送給還在堅持的人們,有時候放手了,可能你就輕鬆一些了!


:要放弃真的有那么容易吗,
我真的很想放弃,
可是我每次抱着希望,
或许有一天他会回到我这,
或许吧。 

Monday, September 22, 2014

25. / Sorry not Sorry


SORRY FOR NOT MAKING YOU HAPPY

SORRY FOR NOT MAKING YOU LAUGH

SORRY FOR NOT MAKING YOU SMILE

SORRY FOR NOT MAKING YOU LAUGH WHEN YOU DONT EVEN FEEL LIKE SMILING 

YEA KINDA SORRY FOR EVERYTHING

LITERALLY EVERYTHING

E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G

K SORRY 

Saturday, August 16, 2014

22. / That time

那时候的你

明明就不爱了

为什么不说

还让我这么相信你

相信你一直这么爱我

呵呵

太笨了

怎么没发现

I'm
A
Failure .


Thursday, August 07, 2014

21. / Regret or Lose

“别等到失去后 才懂得珍惜”

这句话

大家都的记得

一句很重要的话

没经历过 应该觉得这句话不重要

但 一旦你经历了 却已经来不及了

后悔当初的一切 

这些 却已经 不能弥补了

后悔也没用

都已经 来不及了

总之

珍惜你现在拥有的

尤其是

爱你的人 和 你爱的人

:)

Sunday, August 03, 2014

20. / Cry out loud


好想 去一个 没人的地方, 

大哭一场 ……



Friday, August 01, 2014

18. / Need Someone




想找个倾诉的对象都没有

真的 无法想象没有你的日子

我该怎么过 

………

Thursday, July 31, 2014

17. / No longer




原諒一個人是容易的,


但再次信任,就沒那麽容易。


暖一顆心需要很多年,


涼一顆心只要一瞬間。


活著,就要善待自己。


別跑到別人的生命裏當插曲。


不管是友情還是愛情,


你來,我熱情相擁。


你走,我坦然放手!


不屬於我的東西,我不要。


不是真心給我的東西,我不稀罕。


很多時候,寧願被誤會,也不想去解釋。


信與不信,就在你一念之間。


懂我的人,何必解釋。


我向往這樣的心境,不記得失!


有時候,這個世界很大很大,


大到我們一輩子都沒有機會遇見。


有時候,這個世界又很小很小,


小到一擡頭就看見了你的笑臉。


所以


遇見時,請一定要感激;


相愛時,請一定要珍惜;


轉身時,請一定要優雅;


揮別時,請一定要微笑;


因為一轉身,可能一輩子也不會再相見了。

Friday, July 18, 2014

16. / Sacrifice

我没有必要在为你牺牲这么多 .

为你牺牲得太多  会累 .

这一次   你   真的变了.

如果不爱了  请你说,


当你爱的人  已不爱你的时候

那种感觉真的很难受.

每次 能够 为了你牺牲自己,

那 你会因为我 牺牲自己吗 ?

Sunday, July 06, 2014

15. / Leaving


Maybe I should leave .

Friday, April 04, 2014

14. / Go with the flow



 爱情 本来就应该 顺其自然 ,


为什么 要强迫对方 成全自己?


这样只会 照成彼此 更加讨厌对方。


----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


我可以因為某人而牺牲我自己,



却不会应为自己 而去强迫别人。

Monday, March 31, 2014

13. / True-ly

If you truly love someone,

you will trust him/her,

in everything.

If you truly trust someone,


even if both of you far apart,


you will still loves each other,


a lot.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

12. / Friends first

当我告诉你我的 痛处时,

我只希望你能 安慰我

让我开心什么之类的

当你问我原因的时候

我选择不告诉你

你就偏要跟我吵

我知道你很关心我

但是有时候

不是什么事情都得解释的

就算解释了 也未必明白

有时候 也不是那么简单就能解释



你永远都把朋友放在第一 ..........

Friday, March 21, 2014

11. / Stluser

Till then, I know I care when someone called me up and asked about it.
I almost cry seriously, or no, I cried.
But before that, I thought I wouldn't be sad or whatever.
But when everyone called, I .......... Then, its sad.

I told someone, who will care about it in the future?, okay maybe we just care about it for the few month or even few days.

Look at Bill Gates and etc.
Alright, maybe I just try to comfort myself.

Anyway, ITS OVER !
And ITS SUCKS !


ps: Everyone thought i dont care, still can relax,
but deep inside, its sad.
你们都觉得我没有感觉,
其实我有, 只是没把它展现出来.




And now, I just feel like killing myself.

Sigh, can I cry loudly, really loudly with non-stop. = =
Its just the beginning and can I say my two thousand fourteen sucks?
... ....... , .. ... .... .... .

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

10. / Dengue

Hi peeps!
I just feels like blogging but dont know what to blog bout.

*think and think and think.

So here i go with my CNY.
MyGod, my CNY is just so pretty sad.
I got sick for days T^T

It just the second day of CNY and i got fever, HIGH FEVER man.
The whole day keep lying on the bed, sleep and drink and sleep and drink.
Goddamn, that is so bored.
Everyone out there playing cards all those, and i can only SLEEP.

And then the third day only went back home from my kampung.
Then, go clinic.
MyGod, i am in love with the doctor :O
Now, i miss him so much. Hahahahaha. LOL
So i go for blood test.
BLOOD TEST IS TOO MAINSTREAM FOR ME NOW !
So i went blood test almost everyday, like continuously you know.
So that is the first time i went for blood test, i seriously scared of it. (imagine)
And its also the first time i met the doctor.
Once my mom went the clinic too, and she said the doctor very handsome.
So, i got chance to went the clinic too, LOL. (Its not always a good thing went to clinic okay)
And then, Thursday went, Friday went, Saturday went.
Oh, so luckily I dont need to go on Sunday, i got rest for a day BUT I need to go back for blood test on Monday again.
See, blood test again. Sigh.


I am lack of platelets.
And it makes me feel dizzy when i stand up and really no energy.

That is why i need go for blood test just to check the platelets.
I got dengue actually,
but it seems like,
I thought i would die just because of dengue,
because there is few cases bout people die cause of dengue.
So i asked my sister will i die? Can i get well?
LOL.
Was thinking IF I DIED...

So I need to go to the hospital,

I thought i need to stay there and 吊水
But the doctor in the hospital said i dont need to.
So i can back home then.

So I got rashes on my hands and legs, until today,
There is still rashes on my legs, 

looks really ugly on my legs and its red, very red. So now,
I got a job,
that is DRINK WATER.
Everyone asking me to drink water.
I dont need to take my lunch or dinner or what,
because i am full with WATERS.

Ohya! I cant drink beer,
That is so sad.
They bought SOMERSBY Apple Cider,
I can only drink it secretly and only a little bit of it.
Sigh.
And i cant simply eat now.
No nuts, no crackers, no this no that.
So boring.
My CNY=cant eat=suffer.

Okay, so that is my CNY.
How nice was it.
Right?
-,-

So im sick for 1 week+.  *applause*