Monday, August 01, 2016

To whom, who loved me for 4 years X

                              To whom, who loved me for 4 years. Its not easy.
                              Its not that easy to chase someone for 3 years although she used to be in a relationship with
                              others in between, and told everything to whom who used to loved her for years. 
                              Yet, I still have pretty much things to said but guess, its okay, it doesn't matter anymore.
                              But off all the above, doesn't meant anything by now and, the future.

                              The guy who I first date, 
                              "Thank you for the tears, i spent almost all of my nights
                              drowning myself to tears.
                              All of those tears I've shed taught me
                              that it's okay to cry, that it's okay not be "okay".
                              Thank you for not giving me answers, at the time i was more confused
                              than ever that why do things need to have an ending.
                              And for some reason you can't spill out any acceptable reason why.
                              Although i didn't understand why it was over between us.
                              but you know what? It saved me from enduring more pain.
                              it saved me from questioning more than i already had to question.
                              Also, I learned that things just don't happen if there's no reason.
                              You also taught me that feelings for people can change faster
                              than the blink of an eye,
                              just like many other things in life.
                              You taught me to be prepared for anything, to not completely give my heart
                              to someone, that I need to spare something for myself too.
                              Most importantly, you taught me that it's possible to care for someone
                              no matter how much they may have hurt you. because no matter how much i hated you,
                              you're still the person I loved first, but not the person i fell in love with anymore.
                              You taught me that time is never wasted if you spend it with someone you love.
                              I thought that i'd be hurting forever, but I learned
                              that eventually i'd be okay, that eventually my heart would heal.
                              And lastly I want to thank you for breaking my heart, because if you haven't?
                              I will never be the person I am today.
                              And thank you, for leaving me, because I found my self when I lost you."
                              -Words by unknown.
                              And this sums up everything, that it is so true and deep down from bottom of my heart that I wanted to say.

                              To whom, who loved me for four years, 
                              To whom, who I loved for three years,
                              To whom, who I once loved the most,
                              I had finally, moved on.

                              For this might be the last time, I'm not sorry, but thank you.