This would be a long post compare to the other posts cause I'm here to summarize my twenty fourteen.
I'm a bit lazy to type long post and got no time for it and I post whatever comes on my mind so it's short and I'm trying to write prose? And no one is reading so ya.
Alright, if you read my previous post, you knew that I got dengue once and for the first time and it's on a Chinese New Year. Here I'm to talk about all the bad stuff in the year twenty fourteen so yeah. That's the first bad things happen to me. It's okay i had dengue but just why it happened to me on a new year? Luckily we can't celebrate cny this year but no fun and bad sign mah. I just summarize it so if you want know what's going on then go to the blog post.
Then come to the dead day for me- SPM results day. I don't know what happened to me and I just don't know. I got the worst-result-ever in my life - - I work hard for it and I plan everything earlier and I follow my time and study and in the end I get that shitty results that I didn't expect like wth. There goes a post about this but not going to mention cause I didn't really post out the main thing. I actually cry lol.
Alright, then I got National Service like why I am so lucky this year, dengue then this and that. Okay, anyway NS is not a bad thing tho, but the first day I thought I was strong enough not to cry but I actually do you know, I only cry in the bus secretly I guess my dad knew about it. And that time a girl that's the first friend I met and she ask me not to cry and I cry even harder lol. But luciky I met few friends there and close enough to talk nonsense and they are the only one who knew I have a bf like not anymore ha-ha. And I actually came out from ns earlier cause going to continue my studies like I wish at that moment. I actually regret coming out early as staying in there is awesome that you don't have to worried about anything like you're in a holiday, a-controlled-holiday. It's not that bad tho, your schedule maintaining and I think I have a healthier life when I'm there. And no-phone-day is awesome for now, and I'm controlling myself not to open facebook and I did it but not this few days cause I'm too much on facebook this few days.
Okay then, actually the weeks after I continue my studies I actually thoughts of changing course and now I still do. I just hate it I don't know what's the reason and I'm so blank that I don't know what I want but my mind was thinking some course what I don't know I just feel like giving up in studies which is impossible in my family. So there's a post about dream and there it goes. Not going to talk much about this cause it's super duper annoying and I hate it.
Then, this WAS the saddest moment in year twenty fourteen cause I got dump like so sad. Ha-ha-ha. But okay, maybe I don't care anymore but when I say I don't care I still care and so that's the problem. And if I cry again I cry for not holding hands you know. Now I am. You know that feeling when someone so close to you like super close to you and all of sudden that person dump you and you not even in the friend list of the person anymore, not anymore you know, that kind of feeling. I got stuck from the day onwards. And then say "I'll be there for you" all the bull shit stuff. How I am going to trust you again like I got dump by you. Cause I can't even see you when I need you, just as friend you know, but you don't. I'm going to be cruel, super cruel that you can't even believe. One thing I don't know why all the couple out there can last so long like my batch like non of them separate (not to use that words so it won't be obvious lol) are they meant to be together or not the day yet, I'm not cursing them I just wondering how they did it. You know all of them really really sweet. Instagram and twitter can know more things.
// Attempting to convince yourself that you don't care about someone is a clear indicator that you really do. //
After that, I think overall that's it. I can't remember any bad things happened, but on my mind like there's something but I just don't remember. Lol so me. I'm not going to tell any goods or it doesn't happen to me this year so ya.
Ohh, and there I allergic, omg the whole body was so itchy that you feel like cutting of your skin peel
of everything. Then I thought I got 風膜 but it doesn't get better after I
apply calazite lotion (hydrocortisone) and rice vinegar with ginger cause last time when
I was 12 I once had but after I applied the rice vinegar with ginger it
gets better but not this time. So the next day went to the doctor and
he said I allergic to something - - but I don't know, he said allergic
can be in many ways like foods, weather, chemicals like detergents, and
fabrics. But I didn't go for further check up cause it would be
suffering he said. I think I'm allergic to the weather - - cause I feel
itchy when suddenly comes to hot.
But I would like to stay on December 2014 cause it's a productive
month I went traveling to few places. I just love traveling to anywhere
anytime especially sitting in the car look through the window and you'll
see the nature. Not going to post where did I went although I wanted to
do so. But at least at the year end I know what happiness is, little
happiness is more than enough.
Looking
forward to Twenty Fifteen and the first of January cause it is a
big-big day for me and my family. And then August, and December. If can I
would like to skip the other nine months lolol.
And
one thing, the few Malaysia planes were gone. Sigh. And this year I
heard a lot of bad news extremely bad news you know. Death ends a life,
not a relationship.
// many things left unsaid. - Jane. //
- Chapter 12 of 12
